A Liberating Realization
When I got the mail today there was a letter of acceptance to kindergarten for my youngest child, Tori. It was then that I had a most wonderful and liberating realization. In just a few months a I will be at home all day long with no children for the first time in 20 years!
I think part of the reason it is so significant to me is because as a teenager and young adult I squandered my freedom on a veraciously pursued addiction to drugs and, having been rescued from the pit, (by my Higher Power whom I choose to call God) since I was pregnant, had my first child–that was 20 years ago.
I married a couple years later and had another child. While raising the 2 older children I taught them at home. Then in 1995, my husband and I adopted 3 more children (girls 4,2,4months) and 4 years later we got their (then) 10 month old biological sister.
The ramifications of this reality are infinite. Uninterupted bathroom and shower time--rare luxeries to say the least, reading a whole paragraph without needing to restart at least twice--I may actually finish a whole book without needing to lock myself in the closet! A whole telephone conversation with no "phone magnet" incidents. And the house--there will be no-one home to leave foot, finger and other various prints and I predict a serious lack lf clutter, regular excersise--alone--maybe even a hobby
halelujah!
Unbelievable--I am 43 years old and though I love all my children dearly, and may even miss Tori (who will be going to kindergarten) a little, I can hardly wait!